Get determined!

I always get to this realization but never seem to cross the finish line. I have to be so determined with myself to reach my goals. I have to have so much faith in myself to reach my goals. It always seems I start that way, but never reach the end result.

I get this inner motivation screaming "you can do this, just work hard" and then for some reason that voice is silenced. I look down at my thighs and it seems they are slowly getting more flabby. I look at my abs and it seems they are getting more blurry.

This has to be war. Really. For me it has to be war against whatever it is silencing my hope. It has to be war against those flabby thighs. In the end this isn't solely about fat loss. It is figuring out why this inner motivating voice gives up. And it has been giving up for five years.

Five years I have been trying to drop these last 10 pounds! Five long years I have been working to separate myself from ordinary to extraordinary in terms of my body. I have been an athlete my whole life. And for FIVE years I have been trying to chisel these muscles to show. And this voice... this voice leads me to food. It pulls me back where I started. I might have made progress through the week, but food is what can erase it.

I'm not going to let food erase my progress. I am not going to let it run my life. I like the WD principles, because I notice I am 'scared' of being hungry. I am really afraid that if I get hungry, all of a sudden I am going to just eat everything in sight. Time to learn some control.